So I weighed on Friday, and I had put on 4 lbs. no I know I blipped at the weekend and on Wednesday I had a Burger king (unforeseen circumstances on the way home, meant a traffic jam for about 3 miles, and a wait of 4 hours, so back we went to town and every eating place was closed but burger king :/ )
So even still I know I didnt eat an extra 14000 calories to put on 4 lbs of fat.
I know what it is though, On Thursday I was teary, got spots and my tummy was really bloated, I thought aha, the coil still hasnt settled down and my period was about to start again. But no, My ovaries started being painful and so I must be ovulating, I have had painful ov before but not this bad, its still sore today. Apparently this WOE can do this , as the fat comes out of the cells more hormone is there so messes things up a bit.
Just found this too:
Studies have shown that some women who suffer from PMS may become more sensitive to insulin during the luteal phase leading to hypoglycemia (low blood sugar) which could be one of the reasons why they eat 62% more refined carbohydrates and 275% more sugar than those women who don't suffer from PMS. It's believed an increase in estrogen levels may enhance the efficiency of the insulin action. Insulin also aids in fat storage in adipose tissue making weight gain an additional problem.
Maybe this is what is happening to me. I am soldiering on, its got to come off, its got too, it did the first 2 weeks, it will again. But I need to find out more about this menstrual cycle and fat & hormone thing.
Friday, 29 April 2011
Monday, 25 April 2011
Week 4 day 4
First things first, I am on my phone so will make it quick.
Had a baaad weekend. Saturday - had loads of wine and ice cream,
then yesterday I had chocolate, I wasn't going to, but I sat with
my daughter playing games at the kitchen table and the chocolate egg was wafting up my nose and I gave in.
Good news though kids are back to school tomorrow. Also I have a job on the cards with great potential,
So off to a meeting about that on Sunday, hope I get it.
Had a baaad weekend. Saturday - had loads of wine and ice cream,
then yesterday I had chocolate, I wasn't going to, but I sat with
my daughter playing games at the kitchen table and the chocolate egg was wafting up my nose and I gave in.
Good news though kids are back to school tomorrow. Also I have a job on the cards with great potential,
So off to a meeting about that on Sunday, hope I get it.
Friday, 22 April 2011
Week 4 day 1 - weigh day
Weight loss 0 ggrr
Start of a new week, always think I will have a treat on the first day of a new week, but so far I havent, I just cant seem to do it , very strange. Even this morning I thought sod it I am having a coffee with milk, and I couldnt bring myself to have one :/ very odd.
I've just had creme fraiche with a spoon of sweetener and a couple drops of lemon juice for breakfast, along with 2 decaff black coffees and a hand full of almonds.
My goal this week, (though I am taking it a day at a time) is to drink more water.
I was reading something somebody posted on a forum and it makes sense totally, I will quote
"Fat cells are resilient, stubborn little creatures that do not want to give up their actual cell volume. Over a period of weeks, maybe months of "proper dieting", each of your fat cells may have actually lost a good percentage of the actual fat contained in those cells. But the fat cells themselves, stubborn little guys, replace that lost fat with water to retain their size. That is, instead of shrinking to match the reduced amount of fat in the cell, they stay the same size! Result - you weigh the same, look the same, maybe even gained some scale weight, even though you have actually lost some serious fat."
So I need to start drinking more water so the fat cells dont think there is a drought on and dont let go of it.
It seems pretty logical to me- fat cells keep hold of fat when the body is on low fat diet, flood the body with fat and the cells no longer need to keep hold of the fat as there is plenty. OK so they keep their size and fill up with water instead, so flood the body with water so the fat cells wont need to hold on to so much.
Think I have ahad a bit of a light bulb moment about that.
Ok so lots of water today, plus the weather is very deliciously gorgeously warm just now.
Oh I had a quick measure of my waist & boobs, I have lost an inch off my waist, and some off my boobs half an inch I think, so thats good. I also will start my walking again when the kids go back to school on Tuesday .
Start of a new week, always think I will have a treat on the first day of a new week, but so far I havent, I just cant seem to do it , very strange. Even this morning I thought sod it I am having a coffee with milk, and I couldnt bring myself to have one :/ very odd.
I've just had creme fraiche with a spoon of sweetener and a couple drops of lemon juice for breakfast, along with 2 decaff black coffees and a hand full of almonds.
My goal this week, (though I am taking it a day at a time) is to drink more water.
I was reading something somebody posted on a forum and it makes sense totally, I will quote
"Fat cells are resilient, stubborn little creatures that do not want to give up their actual cell volume. Over a period of weeks, maybe months of "proper dieting", each of your fat cells may have actually lost a good percentage of the actual fat contained in those cells. But the fat cells themselves, stubborn little guys, replace that lost fat with water to retain their size. That is, instead of shrinking to match the reduced amount of fat in the cell, they stay the same size! Result - you weigh the same, look the same, maybe even gained some scale weight, even though you have actually lost some serious fat."
So I need to start drinking more water so the fat cells dont think there is a drought on and dont let go of it.
It seems pretty logical to me- fat cells keep hold of fat when the body is on low fat diet, flood the body with fat and the cells no longer need to keep hold of the fat as there is plenty. OK so they keep their size and fill up with water instead, so flood the body with water so the fat cells wont need to hold on to so much.
Think I have ahad a bit of a light bulb moment about that.
Ok so lots of water today, plus the weather is very deliciously gorgeously warm just now.
Oh I had a quick measure of my waist & boobs, I have lost an inch off my waist, and some off my boobs half an inch I think, so thats good. I also will start my walking again when the kids go back to school on Tuesday .
Thursday, 21 April 2011
Week 3 day 7
Feeling ok today, finished my soap order and that has gone off to be delivered to the shop, ahhh, waiting for my payment now, I so need it soon. Hope she doesnt take too long sending it.
Diet wise I have found 'Fitday' a great site a bit like my fitness pal, but it gives you a breakdown on a pie chart to show what you are eating. I have been having too much protein and not enough fat, so upping it a bit, today I am having
Breakfast Scrambled eggs
Lunch sardine & salad
and dinner homemade burgers & salad
obviously eggs with butter, salad with oil and burgers fried in Butter & oil
also I am uploading a BMI chart I need to loose 19lbs before I am no longer obese, :( hopefully I can do that in 10 weeks, yes I think thats my medium goal, my first being to get to 189lbs, my big goal is to get to 150lbs then see how I feel if I want to loose the last 7lbs
Tuesday, 19 April 2011
Mid week Wednesday
Morning all, had a great day Sunday but drank too much wine, I didn't have any pudding and ate venison, roasted butternut squash, and broccoli. I have put a lb on at my mid week weigh in, aarrgghhh so annoyed. I am finding it hard this week, well actually the diet itself is easy, and I'm not craving carbs or anything, I am totally in this way of eating now, trouble is I'm just not hungry anymore, so I don't think I am eating enough, I don't know what to do about it though.
I wish the kids would go back to school, I haven't exercised, I have a huge order I am trying to get out, I haven't cleaned my house for days, I am constantly clearing up food plates so I can try and work, then having to clear my work so people can prepare food, it's driving me crazy.
Nothing I can do about it though, once this order is sent off, hopefully tomorrow, I can have a good tidy up, and get back to normal.
Right best get on with some work if this order is going tomorrow, if I get on I will go and take some pictures of around the place, and the kids.
I wish the kids would go back to school, I haven't exercised, I have a huge order I am trying to get out, I haven't cleaned my house for days, I am constantly clearing up food plates so I can try and work, then having to clear my work so people can prepare food, it's driving me crazy.
Nothing I can do about it though, once this order is sent off, hopefully tomorrow, I can have a good tidy up, and get back to normal.
Right best get on with some work if this order is going tomorrow, if I get on I will go and take some pictures of around the place, and the kids.
Friday, 15 April 2011
Day 15 weigh in day and measure in day
Well I lost a pound this week, bit disappointing but there you go. My measurements have changed though so I will write them down here now
Neck 13.5 inches -lost .5
Wrist 6.5 inches- same
under bust 35 inches,same,
round bust 43 inches lost 1
waist 39.5 inches- .5
stomach 38 inches- 3 inches (wow)
Hips 45 -lost 1
so this week all over I have lost 6 inches from all over my body hooray.
Still pissed off I didnt loose on the scales more than I did but hey ho, I cant stay the same for ever if I loose inches can I? so pretty happy here. Will measure again in a fortnight and weigh in a week. so I will weigh at the end of the month.
Still feeling positive too.
Neck 13.5 inches -lost .5
Wrist 6.5 inches- same
under bust 35 inches,same,
round bust 43 inches lost 1
waist 39.5 inches- .5
stomach 38 inches- 3 inches (wow)
Hips 45 -lost 1
so this week all over I have lost 6 inches from all over my body hooray.
Still pissed off I didnt loose on the scales more than I did but hey ho, I cant stay the same for ever if I loose inches can I? so pretty happy here. Will measure again in a fortnight and weigh in a week. so I will weigh at the end of the month.
Still feeling positive too.
Tuesday, 12 April 2011
Day 12
I think? lol, ive lost count of the days.
Still feeling good, sleeping really really soundly, though my 5 yr old keeps waking up around 5am, today she woke up and said "mummy, what does 'activity ' mean" this was at 5am, so I just said "I have no idea go back to sleep" the next thing it was 6.30am and dh was saying goodbye on his way to work. Normally I would have tossed and turned after being woken like that.
My 5HTP also seems to be working again. I got a book from Amazon called 'Living low carb, its very good explains everything thoroughly. He recommends 5HTP , though I need to get some vitamin B6 too it helps with the conversion or something.
Big news, I measured myself and I have lost inches, not saying how many just yet, will wait for Friday to do that, but it's pretty good.
Right now I am getting a headache so need to go and drink water, or hot water & lemon as I have, and have 2 paracetamols.
Its a sunny , showery day today.
Still feeling good, sleeping really really soundly, though my 5 yr old keeps waking up around 5am, today she woke up and said "mummy, what does 'activity ' mean" this was at 5am, so I just said "I have no idea go back to sleep" the next thing it was 6.30am and dh was saying goodbye on his way to work. Normally I would have tossed and turned after being woken like that.
My 5HTP also seems to be working again. I got a book from Amazon called 'Living low carb, its very good explains everything thoroughly. He recommends 5HTP , though I need to get some vitamin B6 too it helps with the conversion or something.
Big news, I measured myself and I have lost inches, not saying how many just yet, will wait for Friday to do that, but it's pretty good.
Right now I am getting a headache so need to go and drink water, or hot water & lemon as I have, and have 2 paracetamols.
Its a sunny , showery day today.
Monday, 11 April 2011
Good morning day 11.
Wow cant belive its day 11. I am really enjoying this WOE (way of eating).
I just had creme fraiche with lemon juice & a bit of sweetener , so yummy.
I dont feel any thinner, thought I would by now, nobody has commented either, but I am keeping in my mind the people I dont see instead of the people I do see. Every one I see everyday, wont notice such a gradual weight loss. But I think of my mum and dad, my brother who lives in the village, I hardly see them, they work, I live 12 miles away, we speak often but I keep thinking I cannot wait till they see me and hope they notice have lost weight. When I have lost a stone I will buy myself a new top and new jeans and hope somebody notices.
We had a lovely weekend here. The weather was hot on Saturday and we had a barbecue. I got some chicken legs, roasted them and then put them on the barbie, yum. I had a burger too, but without the bun.
Dont know what to eat today, had my breakfast which was the creme fraiche. Might boil a couple of eggs incase I need a snack. I bought smoked salmon & cream cheese so maybe have a wee slice of that. Oh and 4 avocados I had better have a salad with those today actually, they were reduced, I will have that for dinner I think, and fry some bacon to go along with it. I got ground nut oil too. Ive already made a salad dressing with white wine vinegar, garlic, herbs de Provence, ground nut oil & lemon juice. its in the fridge. Will use it later
bye for now
God Friday(weigh day) seems miles away
I just had creme fraiche with lemon juice & a bit of sweetener , so yummy.
I dont feel any thinner, thought I would by now, nobody has commented either, but I am keeping in my mind the people I dont see instead of the people I do see. Every one I see everyday, wont notice such a gradual weight loss. But I think of my mum and dad, my brother who lives in the village, I hardly see them, they work, I live 12 miles away, we speak often but I keep thinking I cannot wait till they see me and hope they notice have lost weight. When I have lost a stone I will buy myself a new top and new jeans and hope somebody notices.
We had a lovely weekend here. The weather was hot on Saturday and we had a barbecue. I got some chicken legs, roasted them and then put them on the barbie, yum. I had a burger too, but without the bun.
Dont know what to eat today, had my breakfast which was the creme fraiche. Might boil a couple of eggs incase I need a snack. I bought smoked salmon & cream cheese so maybe have a wee slice of that. Oh and 4 avocados I had better have a salad with those today actually, they were reduced, I will have that for dinner I think, and fry some bacon to go along with it. I got ground nut oil too. Ive already made a salad dressing with white wine vinegar, garlic, herbs de Provence, ground nut oil & lemon juice. its in the fridge. Will use it later
bye for now
God Friday(weigh day) seems miles away
Friday, 8 April 2011
Oh gosh
That soup was gorgeous, I ate it all, mind you it was a little squash, only 2 bowls full, but wow yummy. I didn't have bacon so made parmesan crisps, and crumbled one into the bowl of soup and ate the others because I love crunchy stuff.
I am so stuffed. right back to work, wrapping and labelling soap. Emma came along and took a load for Saturday. Think I will have a shower after that then zoom round with the vacuum , make some pancakes for the kiddlets coming in.
Then let the holidays commence yayyy x
I am so stuffed. right back to work, wrapping and labelling soap. Emma came along and took a load for Saturday. Think I will have a shower after that then zoom round with the vacuum , make some pancakes for the kiddlets coming in.
Then let the holidays commence yayyy x
Mwah ha haaa Day 8
Whooop day 8 time to step on the scales, drum roll please
195 oh yeah :)
all is good. Not taking chances anymore though. I'm on the second week now yay. I feel really good if I'm honest, I do have the metallic taste in my mouth so thats sort of good, means my body is burning its fat that it's been cheekily storing for the past 5 years.
I've had salami, pate & cheese for breakfast with some almonds first thing and just now for a snack. Just going to make the butternut soup sounds yummy.
Tonight I will have fish & pesto I didnt have it yesterday, I wasnt hungry, I was so full of energy too, and I just had what I had for breakfast, which was salad with cheese, avocado & little gem lettuce & chopped salami. Must get pepperami's tomorrow try and change my salads a bit. I am a bit gulty opf really enjoying the food at the start of a new way of eating, then I get fed up of the food and go off track. So next week I am having things like prawns , smoked salmon, cream cheese, smoked mackerel things like that, and get stuff in for mushroom soup.
So excited about this, I'm nervous about being thin. it's weird. I picked my daughter up to take her to bed and she weighs maybe 17-18 kilos which is nearly 40lbs, she was really heavy and I thought, if I need to loose another 48lbs, thats more than she weighs, she felt really heavy, I dont know how I will feel being that much lighter, its weird. don't feel like I am carrying that much extra weight round with me, very bizarre.
Right best go & put my oven on for the butternut
I just cut it down the middle , scoop the seeds, roast it for an hour at 190 the n scoop it out of the skin (brushed with olive oil before I roast it) then add stock chicken or veg, then blitz, then heat , then sprnkle bacon & parmesan on top, havent got bacon, but parmesan is fine. MMmmm can't wait xxx
195 oh yeah :)
all is good. Not taking chances anymore though. I'm on the second week now yay. I feel really good if I'm honest, I do have the metallic taste in my mouth so thats sort of good, means my body is burning its fat that it's been cheekily storing for the past 5 years.
I've had salami, pate & cheese for breakfast with some almonds first thing and just now for a snack. Just going to make the butternut soup sounds yummy.
Tonight I will have fish & pesto I didnt have it yesterday, I wasnt hungry, I was so full of energy too, and I just had what I had for breakfast, which was salad with cheese, avocado & little gem lettuce & chopped salami. Must get pepperami's tomorrow try and change my salads a bit. I am a bit gulty opf really enjoying the food at the start of a new way of eating, then I get fed up of the food and go off track. So next week I am having things like prawns , smoked salmon, cream cheese, smoked mackerel things like that, and get stuff in for mushroom soup.
So excited about this, I'm nervous about being thin. it's weird. I picked my daughter up to take her to bed and she weighs maybe 17-18 kilos which is nearly 40lbs, she was really heavy and I thought, if I need to loose another 48lbs, thats more than she weighs, she felt really heavy, I dont know how I will feel being that much lighter, its weird. don't feel like I am carrying that much extra weight round with me, very bizarre.
Right best go & put my oven on for the butternut
I just cut it down the middle , scoop the seeds, roast it for an hour at 190 the n scoop it out of the skin (brushed with olive oil before I roast it) then add stock chicken or veg, then blitz, then heat , then sprnkle bacon & parmesan on top, havent got bacon, but parmesan is fine. MMmmm can't wait xxx
Thursday, 7 April 2011
So hacked off
Still 197 I cant believe it, why wont those 2lbs come off? I drank all my 2lts water the last couple of days, had no carbs didnt cheat, havent lost any inches, I do feel better in myself today though with my periods being a bit erratic they make me feel bloated, I havent had any cravings for carbs at all. I am just mystified, I am going to carry on though, something has got to go right eventually. Why hasnt it come off though I put it on and should have lost it straight away, I lost those 4lbs straight away at first, and yes I had sausages that were borderline not great plus I had curry that I thought would be ok but possibly wasnt, but it should have come off in the last 2/3 days, I havent cheated at all, I know I havent, its upsetting me a bit.
I know if I say people will think I cheated somehow, but I know what I have eaten and all I had that was 'wrong' was 3-4 vodkas on Sunday then those sausages on Sunday & Monday, then the Curry, which TBH I really dont think was that wrong, I counted the carbs and it shouldnt have been many, plus I had been really good the rest of the day.I havent even snacked :(
SO today will be
Breakfast- boiled egg, crispy bacon & avocado salad
Lunch is going to be, tuna salami, cheese, couple olives some nuts
Dinner baked fish with pesto
it has to be down tomorrow
I know if I say people will think I cheated somehow, but I know what I have eaten and all I had that was 'wrong' was 3-4 vodkas on Sunday then those sausages on Sunday & Monday, then the Curry, which TBH I really dont think was that wrong, I counted the carbs and it shouldnt have been many, plus I had been really good the rest of the day.I havent even snacked :(
SO today will be
Breakfast- boiled egg, crispy bacon & avocado salad
Lunch is going to be, tuna salami, cheese, couple olives some nuts
Dinner baked fish with pesto
it has to be down tomorrow
Wednesday, 6 April 2011
Hello day 6
Day 6, I have decided not to weigh till morning of day 8, then I have been on the diet for 7 proper full days.
I feel good today.
In the book there is a section called 'Are you ready' ? where there is a space for you to write in all your details measurements etc.
So Today I am going to write here the measurements, if I do it in the book people will see, people such as Dh who I dont want to know how fat I am. I wont write my weight though till Friday, I will do them all again next Friday then every fortnight after that.
So here goes
Todays date is- 06April 2011
I am 5' 4" tall
I weigh
My neck measures 14 inches
my wrists measure 6.5 inches
My bust measurements are 35(under) and 44(round)
My waist measurement is 40 inches
My hips measure 46inches
My stomach measures 41 inches
Shite I am a fat bloater.
NO MORE THOUGH
Next week will be good
Menu for today
2 poached eggs & ham
Cauliflower cheese
Tuna salad
lots of water
and a fitness dvd
I feel good today.
In the book there is a section called 'Are you ready' ? where there is a space for you to write in all your details measurements etc.
So Today I am going to write here the measurements, if I do it in the book people will see, people such as Dh who I dont want to know how fat I am. I wont write my weight though till Friday, I will do them all again next Friday then every fortnight after that.
So here goes
Todays date is- 06April 2011
I am 5' 4" tall
I weigh
My neck measures 14 inches
my wrists measure 6.5 inches
My bust measurements are 35(under) and 44(round)
My waist measurement is 40 inches
My hips measure 46inches
My stomach measures 41 inches
Shite I am a fat bloater.
NO MORE THOUGH
Next week will be good
Menu for today
2 poached eggs & ham
Cauliflower cheese
Tuna salad
lots of water
and a fitness dvd
Tuesday, 5 April 2011
Afternoon all
Feeling slightly better this afternoon. I have been really good today, not so much with the water thing , but it seems the more I drink the thirstier I get, and its making me feel sick.
So I wont be drinking 3 litres a day I think thats far too much anyway.
Oh I dont take the supplements either, I dont feel lacking in vit B, I would take the husk stuff if I felt I needed to, and the chromium I took that for 6 months before and it had no effect what so ever, so not taking it again.
So today I had breakfast which made me feel sick, I am going off spinach a bit, todays wasnt as nice as the stuff I had last week, but I was full up then till 2.45 when I had parmesan crisps yum, and a couple slices of turkey, and some philadelphia cheese, that was very nice. Just making a chocolate cake for the kids when they come in, I dont want any of it, I was a bit worried I would want some but I have no desire to eat it, soI obviously dont need chromium to help with cravings lol.
I'm not hungry at all now, but at least when I come in tonight I can have some cheese, olives and salami before I go to bed, I am taking some almonds with me in my bag, I will have that along with water and some gum then I wont be tempted.
Right best go , need to shower shortly.
So I wont be drinking 3 litres a day I think thats far too much anyway.
Oh I dont take the supplements either, I dont feel lacking in vit B, I would take the husk stuff if I felt I needed to, and the chromium I took that for 6 months before and it had no effect what so ever, so not taking it again.
So today I had breakfast which made me feel sick, I am going off spinach a bit, todays wasnt as nice as the stuff I had last week, but I was full up then till 2.45 when I had parmesan crisps yum, and a couple slices of turkey, and some philadelphia cheese, that was very nice. Just making a chocolate cake for the kids when they come in, I dont want any of it, I was a bit worried I would want some but I have no desire to eat it, soI obviously dont need chromium to help with cravings lol.
I'm not hungry at all now, but at least when I come in tonight I can have some cheese, olives and salami before I go to bed, I am taking some almonds with me in my bag, I will have that along with water and some gum then I wont be tempted.
Right best go , need to shower shortly.
Monday, 4 April 2011
AAAARRRGGGHHH
SHIT, 197 this morning, so bloody annoyed, was it the sausages??? was it the curry??? I dont know, maybe its water retention??? I was really thirsty yesterday too and drank loads of water. I have period pains too. Why whenever start a diet do I get my period after the first week, I get bloated and sore so never loose much, I am so sodding well pissed off.
Right today its egg mushrooms & tomato for breakfast, lunch is salad with cheese ham & quail eggs, and dinner will be not sure cauliflower cheese maybe. I am off to the cinema tonight so thats good, I dont take snacks.
Bye for now x
Right today its egg mushrooms & tomato for breakfast, lunch is salad with cheese ham & quail eggs, and dinner will be not sure cauliflower cheese maybe. I am off to the cinema tonight so thats good, I dont take snacks.
Bye for now x
Oh good
That worked. Well I shall choose some tighter clothes and wear them each week on a Wednesday morning weigh in day, and hope I see a big difference by the end of the month.
I am having a snack of cucumber, pate, walnuts and almonds, just a wee bit of each to tide me over till 6pm.
Looking forward to wednesday. Tuesday night is good because I am going to the cinema and wont take any food, just a bottle of water and will be back at bed time so then day after is weigh in hooray
I am having a snack of cucumber, pate, walnuts and almonds, just a wee bit of each to tide me over till 6pm.
Looking forward to wednesday. Tuesday night is good because I am going to the cinema and wont take any food, just a bottle of water and will be back at bed time so then day after is weigh in hooray
Hi
here I am again here is me (hopefully) I was just out of the bath so forgive the blotchy face and wet hair :)
Monday 4th April
DAY 6
I feel fine today very very thirsty though, especially this afternoon.
Diet wise everything is fine, feeling good today. Hopefully getting a fortnightly stall to sell my soap on at the village market every other Saturday from 7th May to end September, so building stock up just in case, I will hear by the end of today, I don't think I will hear till about 7pm.
So today I have had turkey soup for breakfast
2 sausages 2 rashers bacon and some mushrooms for lunch
and for dinner its turkey curry I am making korma.
Just going to dry my hair then I might upload a couple of photos of me
Yikes
I feel fine today very very thirsty though, especially this afternoon.
Diet wise everything is fine, feeling good today. Hopefully getting a fortnightly stall to sell my soap on at the village market every other Saturday from 7th May to end September, so building stock up just in case, I will hear by the end of today, I don't think I will hear till about 7pm.
So today I have had turkey soup for breakfast
2 sausages 2 rashers bacon and some mushrooms for lunch
and for dinner its turkey curry I am making korma.
Just going to dry my hair then I might upload a couple of photos of me
Yikes
Sunday, 3 April 2011
Mothers day -Pah
I have had Mothers day bigged up all week and when the day comes I have been so let down. Every day last week the kids were going on about mothers day every day and breakfast in bed. I told them I would like sausages , mushrooms and a tomato, and I got nothing, because they wanted pancakes and I didnt , they decided not to bother.
I even went back to bed , just in case. But no.
I was expecting Dh to say he would cook dinner, I would have said no its ok, I will do it, but he didnt, he just asked "what time are you putting the dinner on" and I thought oh, I guess that means I am making diner. It would have been nice to have been asked. I feel so unappreciated. I also feel selfish and ungrateful, I shouldnt be expecting flowers and gifts. But the fact I have been going on about this diet all week and they all know I am fat, so what do they do? buy me chocolates.
Honestly, and then try and make it sound like they tried by dh saying, he would have bought flowers yesterday but he would have had to give them to me then and not today, as they would have wilted. Good grief, he has a cool shed beside the house, why couldnt he have out them in there? He just couldnt be arsed. I'm obviously not worth a shit.
Anyway I'm close to tears so best close.
Diet wise everything is fine
I even went back to bed , just in case. But no.
I was expecting Dh to say he would cook dinner, I would have said no its ok, I will do it, but he didnt, he just asked "what time are you putting the dinner on" and I thought oh, I guess that means I am making diner. It would have been nice to have been asked. I feel so unappreciated. I also feel selfish and ungrateful, I shouldnt be expecting flowers and gifts. But the fact I have been going on about this diet all week and they all know I am fat, so what do they do? buy me chocolates.
Honestly, and then try and make it sound like they tried by dh saying, he would have bought flowers yesterday but he would have had to give them to me then and not today, as they would have wilted. Good grief, he has a cool shed beside the house, why couldnt he have out them in there? He just couldnt be arsed. I'm obviously not worth a shit.
Anyway I'm close to tears so best close.
Diet wise everything is fine
Saturday, 2 April 2011
Day 4
I feel fine today. I would have had a good sleep but My daughter came into my bed at 5.30 this morning so I went into hers. I hate that.
But yes I feel fine, no problems in the toilet area either , some people get constipated, but I have been eating plenty nuts and spinach and drinking plenty too.
I weighed again today naughty but I cant help it, can you believe this 195.2 thats nearly 2lbs since yesterday, and 4 since Wednesday. Its fabulous.
Dh killed our male turkey last night , he got really aggressive the last couple of months, I had to stop feeding the hens because he was going mad at the fence to me. Then the last 3 times dh has gone to either lock them up for the night or let them out, he has just flown at dh and attacked him, so he is no more, and we have a 22lb turkey to eat lol. And that is after he has been plucked and gutted. So loads of low fat high protein for me the next few days, hooray.
Right best go wake ds1 up for drama group.
I will return xx
But yes I feel fine, no problems in the toilet area either , some people get constipated, but I have been eating plenty nuts and spinach and drinking plenty too.
I weighed again today naughty but I cant help it, can you believe this 195.2 thats nearly 2lbs since yesterday, and 4 since Wednesday. Its fabulous.
Dh killed our male turkey last night , he got really aggressive the last couple of months, I had to stop feeding the hens because he was going mad at the fence to me. Then the last 3 times dh has gone to either lock them up for the night or let them out, he has just flown at dh and attacked him, so he is no more, and we have a 22lb turkey to eat lol. And that is after he has been plucked and gutted. So loads of low fat high protein for me the next few days, hooray.
Right best go wake ds1 up for drama group.
I will return xx
Friday, 1 April 2011
I'm no fool
Ok so first of April day 3, I did weigh myself today even though I have another 4 days to go, I wanted to see how much would loose in a month.
Ok here goes today I am 197lbs, I never want to see that on my scales again, I was on Wednesday morning 199lbs so I have lost a lb a day, bloody Hell, I hope I can carry on loosing 1lb a day in 2 weeks on phase one I would loose a frigging stone. Wow.
Any way I wont so who knows maybe in a month I can, 29 days to go.
Yes day 3 of the idiot proof diet, it really does seem easy, I am loving it, I need to plan what to get though as I dont want my treats to become part of my every day food meal, I love my treats, like olives, cheese, avocado, though I will have lots of avocado , I have just discovered it really, and I thought I didnt like it, but I do lol. I feel a bit odd really today, I got up and my friend called and said she needed to go to a dentist appt, just a check up so only 10 mins, and would I come , we could go for a coffee, she would treat me to breakfast. I said sure I would come but no brekkie for me I'm low carbing, had some cheese olives and ham for breakfast.
We went to the cafe at 10ish and had a black coffee, she had black coffee 2 sugars and a bacon roll. I didnt drool. Then we came home and she came up for a cuppa, she had a biscuit and 2 teas with 2 sugars, I had 2 black teas, not decaff, but weak.
We chatted we both have issues with an ex friend, so we sat and mulled the situation over. Next thing I looked at the clock and it was 3pm, stuck the cooker hob on and rustled up some griddle scones for the kids coming in at 4.
E (friend) then left and I realised I hadn't eaten since 8.30, so rustled up the same as breakfast, I should have had more, but it was more of a large snack. I'm having haddock for dinner. So now I feel slightly light headed, I have drunk 6 cups of water today, which is good for me. I actually feel lighter, I like the feeling, so I am sticking with it. I also love the food. I got my book this afternoon and I love it,its like talking to an old friend.
So off to make my dinner now, haddock wrapped in smoky bacon on a bed of creamy mushrooms and wilted spinach. I reaaally want a vodka and slimline tonic, I will try not to though eeek. See you tomorrow for day 4.
Ok here goes today I am 197lbs, I never want to see that on my scales again, I was on Wednesday morning 199lbs so I have lost a lb a day, bloody Hell, I hope I can carry on loosing 1lb a day in 2 weeks on phase one I would loose a frigging stone. Wow.
Any way I wont so who knows maybe in a month I can, 29 days to go.
Yes day 3 of the idiot proof diet, it really does seem easy, I am loving it, I need to plan what to get though as I dont want my treats to become part of my every day food meal, I love my treats, like olives, cheese, avocado, though I will have lots of avocado , I have just discovered it really, and I thought I didnt like it, but I do lol. I feel a bit odd really today, I got up and my friend called and said she needed to go to a dentist appt, just a check up so only 10 mins, and would I come , we could go for a coffee, she would treat me to breakfast. I said sure I would come but no brekkie for me I'm low carbing, had some cheese olives and ham for breakfast.
We went to the cafe at 10ish and had a black coffee, she had black coffee 2 sugars and a bacon roll. I didnt drool. Then we came home and she came up for a cuppa, she had a biscuit and 2 teas with 2 sugars, I had 2 black teas, not decaff, but weak.
We chatted we both have issues with an ex friend, so we sat and mulled the situation over. Next thing I looked at the clock and it was 3pm, stuck the cooker hob on and rustled up some griddle scones for the kids coming in at 4.
E (friend) then left and I realised I hadn't eaten since 8.30, so rustled up the same as breakfast, I should have had more, but it was more of a large snack. I'm having haddock for dinner. So now I feel slightly light headed, I have drunk 6 cups of water today, which is good for me. I actually feel lighter, I like the feeling, so I am sticking with it. I also love the food. I got my book this afternoon and I love it,its like talking to an old friend.
So off to make my dinner now, haddock wrapped in smoky bacon on a bed of creamy mushrooms and wilted spinach. I reaaally want a vodka and slimline tonic, I will try not to though eeek. See you tomorrow for day 4.
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